published on: may 03, 2026
author:seek and tell
writing this one feels different. its after two months of constant back and forths with my parents on picking a college, doing various thing like doing courses and building pathway scholarz. yea its just a lot of things in general. i finally did end up picking a college which was cost-effective and that offered the best co-ops which was the university of cincinnati. hey its not like ucsd or uc davis or even umich, which are great and hard to get into colleges that i got into luckily but they were way too expensive for me. ill prob think of the transfer program but i am able to somewhat adjust with my future classmates and peers who will also attend cincy like me.
now as i write this post, i want to talk about two things as i listen to the hand covers bruise bgm from the film, the social network. first thing, dont try and get too attached to anybody in college. in all seriousness, making new friends in this college and talking to girls especially has gotten really hard. people give a lot of mixed feelings in general and this was unexpected. even my own indian community, from where i was born, have no interest in talking to me. it feels like getting backstabbed 7 times. also in the life, living alone seems to be the best option. my own roommmate thinks im a doofus and theres not much communication between the both of us. in general, now that i think about it, going to california or illnois(uiuc) would have been better. in fact my own members from pathway think im a clown which is honestly upsetting. and i feel locked in this ceel where if i crash out, i end up
-from the desk of seek and tell